Anyways... Rochester. The home of Ryan's Army Reserve Base. We are all here because Ryan was suddenly asked to go on a 9-12 month deployment to Kyrgyzstan, a country between Kazakhstan and China by all the other "-stan's". So, yeah... our lives are changing a bit :) Hence me having something to blog about!
I plan to blog more about his mission later on... tonight I wanted to focus a bit more on the lack of control that we have over our lives. This deployment was really not in our "future plans" as we sat down 2 weekends ago and wrote out some goals and desires that we have for our life. I do not desire to be separated from my husband by miles and miles for months and months. It is not my goal to deliver our second child and first son in less than 2 months without my husband by my side.
But here's the thing...
I don't want my future plans for my life, or even Ryan's future plans for our life.
Why?
Because having the faith to live out God's plan for my life will bring me a life that I couldn't ever even dream of, and I am a dreamer people! God's desire is to give me a life that is BEYOND what I can ask, think, or imagine! He has something BIG for me and my family... and this is part of it.
God is in control... we can't change that, even if we wanted to. He is the creator... He is above all, He is set apart. We can't understand Him fully enough to come close to overpowering Him even if we tried for forever... so why would I try to stand in his all knowing way? I don't understand why this part of my life has to go this way... I don't like thinking about the challenges I will be facing this next year... but I do understand that God's will is perfect, and His plans NEVER fail.
God has a plan for this! I am beyond excited to see the things that will happen this year because we are being faithful to His plan. I pray that both Ryan and I can continue to have the desire to walk in the path that the Lord has for us and continue to bring Him the glory.
- Pray that Ryan will allow the Holy Spirit to work through him and infiltrate the lives of the people around him
- Pray that I can CLEARLY see what it is that I am to be focused on this year, and that I can be the best mom to Peyton and new baby Vandis when he gets here
2 comments:
Sarah! I am soooo glad you are back to blogging! Seriously, everyday I come across other "Military Wife" blogs and I think of YOU!! Praying for protection as well, you are so strong and yor positive take is SO inspiring! Keep blogging girl! It will be a GREAT scrapbook for Peyton/Vandis to know what Daddy + Mommy wer eup to during this part of their lives. BLESS YOU FRIEND!!!!
Sarah, One thing I can't help thinking about is all of the times you couldn't figure out the delays in Border Patrol or Ryan going active and you all moving out of state or to another country.
We can't see two seconds into the future but God sees the whole picture, He knew what the delay was about even when we didn't.
How hard it would have been if Ryan had been deployed while you were away from family and friends. I thank God for His wisdom. When we don't understand we can bet that God does and we can have peace in that.
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